Damn! now that’s a sexy ass couple. World, meet my girlfriend lyn.
Unfortunately, she’s not here. She’s back home now (Nachitoches) and I am
I just get bored too easily I think because she’s only been gone a couple of hours. My friends will be in town starting tomorrow so I won’t be bored long. But as for right now I am back to my insomnia. Usually about this time I’d be at her house doing nothing. But instead I’m at my mom’s house blogging up space on the internet. I am trying to keep myself from going to the casino right now which is what I usually do when I get really bored. It’s not the gambling I’m trying to avoid. I actually have been on a gambling hiatus for a while now. I just know if I go in there I’ll be in there all night like old times and get back into my bad sleeping habits I had worked so hard getting out of. But anyway, Yup she’s my girlfriend now. She asked me this past Wednesday and I happily accepted. I’m not sure if she asked me because she knew I wanted her to or what, but it doesn’t really matter. She’s all mine. And now she’s gone. One of the best things about having her around is that she kept me out of trouble. Long before we started dating I had thought to myself many times that I needed a girlfriend. I never expressed this to her and didn’t put it on my blog several times when I wanted to for fear that she might see it and think I was trying to push her in that direction. But did a lot of dumb shit in 2004. The first 3/4 of the year was a serious regression. And now being here bored and relatively alone I remember why I was thinking about getting a girlfriend against my own better judgement last year when there weren’t even any suitable candidates. Cause when I’m idle I do some seriously counter-productive shit. Spending all night in the casino instead of sleeping and getting ready for work. Sleeping with women I don’t like just because they’re there. Eating, usually something greasy and unhealthy just so I have something to do. I do get a lot of writing done when I’m alone but that happens when the spirit moves me so a lot more of my attention goes to the wrong places. The other intangible that she is so useful for is sleeping. I slept in the same bed with my parents til I was 8 and then in the same room with them til I was 9. I think it’s ingrained in me to need another physical presence in order to get to sleep. If I’m in a room alone my mind starts to wander, I become more aware and more awake the longer I lay trying to get to sleep. But being in a room with another person relaxes me. My attention is usually either focused on them or at least it’s diverted long enough to trick me into going to sleep. Being by lyn’s house with her is like a sedative (meant in the most flattering way) Orgasmic stimulation doesn’t hurt much either as far as making me sleepy. But I’ll digress. I don’t want to sound like the only thing good about having her around is getting me to sleep and keeping me out of trouble. In fact I been wanting Her as long as I’ve known her. She wasn’t ready for me when we first met. But through perseverance, and some good timing things ended up working out ok. There’s so many more benefits because I chose wisely. She’s a very suitable mate for me. And we’re both at a good point in our lives to be in a relationship. Both mature enough to deal with the responsibilities. Both far enough removed from our last relationship to not let emotional baggage be a problem. Netiher of us too insecure to cause privacy issues. Both insecure enough to keep our attention focused on each other at a healthy level. Both very grateful to have the other as a partner. She’s a really good person. The fact that we started off always being honest with each other has built a very good foundation of trust between us. But even if I didn’t already know to trust her I could anyway because she’s so good. She really cares about me, and she trusts me even though she knows I’m a liar not because she’s in love and she wants to trust me but because she knows I wouldn’t lie to her. She’s smart and capable and bound for success. Someone I would like for my parents to meet because I feel she would be a good reflection of me. And did I mention she’s fine? I mean you can see from her picture that she’s beautiful, but what you can’t see is that perfect body. Lawd Hammercy she is a brickhouse. Anyway, I’ll get off her nutsack now because I’m sure yall get the idea. So ya’ll can see why I’m so bored without her.